Sometimes I wonder what it feels like go be loved by someone who will never leave. Someone who will never betray or abandon; someone who no matter what is always there with unconditional support and love.
Unfortunately I do not know what it is like to have a spouse or partner with those endearing qualities. After 17 years I cannot say that any of it was true, except for the children. I cannot say that marriage vows he did not break. I can say that no one is perfect although that does not excuse us from our actions. Our imperfections make us who we are but they are not what keeps us from doing right or wrong.
And instead of staying around for reasons still unknown….sometimes I wish I would have been left alone because I have grown very tired of the lies still coming undone.